April 25

And another weekend comes to its end.  Well it may be my last one here, I wonder.  Except for the fuck up with the visit, things went well.  Time really does go faster in max.  I don’t know if I would take a move now if they offered it to me.  I’m content where I am.  I’ve got things to do tomorrow, letters to write, complaints to put in, calls to make … tonight I go to bed hoping to receive good news tomorrow that I’ve been waiting for.  Please ….

April 26

I didn’t get the news I was hoping for today.  Brian S. told me that the Detox has me rescheduled for May 31.  But my [mother] says that Peter called for her and the they told [Counselor] it was the 3rd.  She’s going to check it out tomorrow, so there is still some hope.  There’s always hope, as Santa would say … Susan took me down to the library this morning to sort some books.  Thank god she’s here but I think this is her last week.  Mine too please …

Tyler came back this evening. So things are back to normal.  But we got a new guy too – some kid from St. John who wants to watch hockey.  No sports in this unit though … Fire alarm just went off – second time in a week.  This is getting annoying … they fed us liver for supper, also the second time in a week.  That’s even more annoying, disgusting really.  I don’t know how anyone can eat that shit.  I’m making a lot of meals out of peanut butter lately.  I’m really looking forward to Pizza Delight and Kentucky Fried Chicken … and then the Big Slice [a Toronto pizza chain].

April 27

I heard some interest[ing] news today from my mother.  [reg learns that his ex-wife is now seeing someone – which is acceptable to everyone, but Reg is devastated]. … ’m stunned.  …  must be extremely lonely.  Wow.  …  I think I just fully realized how much I must care for them now.  I’m going to have to try hard to be a really good father and maybe someday I will have custody.  I think now that this is the reason that prompted her to go for the separation.

Her lawyer called me today and said that [my wife] was in a panic to get it signed before I got out.&nb, [!*!] her.  I’ll sign it when I’m good and ready to sign it …

[Valerie] is too young to know what’s going on.  I wish I could be a bigger influence in her life.  This situation makes me uncomfortable to say the least … … …

… the good news today is that my mother confirmed that I am on the list for the May 3 program.  I only hope Brian S. is able to get it cleared in time.  After all its only 6 days away.  I’m getting so anxious to get on with my life.  There’s so much out there to be experienced.

 April 28

The end is finally in sight.  Brian Smith was here today with a completed parole application which he is rushing to Moncton today.  Time is short but there is a good possibility that I will be ok’ed for the program starting on Monday.  If not then, then on the 31st. Either way, I’m on my way out.  Brian has been pretty helpful and wrote a good report.  All I can do now is hope for the best.  Random notes from this period – may have been trying to write music: