April 20

Today I was able to get moved over to the other unit, with Tylers help.  The company is much better.  I heard [Supervisor] telling Tyler that he was concerned that I would start writing letters and that was why he didn’t want me in here.  I hadn’t heard that explanation before (it wasn’t what [Counselor] told me) so I’m going to ask [Supervisor] about it and request a written explanation.  Other than that, not much happened today.

We played Scrabble and Risk, which I haven’t played since the last time I was here.  My time should go by a bit faster in this unit.  I’m anxious to hear some more about my parole.  I hope everything is ok.

April 21

Heard some disappointing news today.  My mother said she was told that there were no beds left for the May program.  If not, I’ll be spending another month here.  I hope to find out for sure tomorrow.  I don’t want to spend another month here especially now that I’m so close to getting out.  I hate this fucking system …  I had a talk / argument with [Supervisor] today about why I’m being held here.  I heard him say yesterday that it was because of my letters, but he denied that.  I can’t believe a word that comes out of his mouth.  Man of a thousand faces …

[my wife]’s separation papers came today.  I’m thinking that I really should talk to a lawyer about this before I sign anything.  The money that the cops gave her is going to be a snag because I’m going to insist on receiving that before I sign …  they moved two guys over to the other unit, so things are good here now; just four of us:  Me, Tyler, Jason and Tom.  My time is going by much better here.  Over there I was spending it alone in my room but here I find it much more relaxing to be able to play Scrabble or Risk or watch something good on tv.

April 22

Couldn’t get any news today.  Brian S. is out till Monday, at the parole hearing in Moncton, I suppose, Paul M. at Summerside Detox wasn’t in and my mother didn’t come in.  So, I’m not sure when I’ll get the answers but I’m preparing myself to be disappointed.  Good luck hasn’t often come my way the past year. … Tom went to medium today so now it’s just me, Tyler, and Jason.  But Larry is in lockup and might be coming here.  I’d like to have him in with us …

I was able to see my file today – nothing too incriminating in it, but [Supervisor] said there was stuff I wasn’t allowed to see.  I should have asked him about that …  George finally got some crossword puzzles in today.  I’m pleased about that … I’m really getting tired of this place though. Got get out, gotta get away …  Tiger Bay …

April 23

The pills came in today.  Tyler was right out of it at supper, and [Guard 3] took him to the lock-up shortly afterward.  I didn’t take any cause it was too risky now with the Detox thing coming up if it happens.  Although, I did hear Jolie say that she didn’t want to take the program next month, so maybe there will be an opening.  I’ll cross my fingers …

I’m no longer getting chicken instead of fish.  They’re always giving me leftovers now or some other shit, a sandwich.  I’m wondering if the nurse is behind this (I think they’re searching Tylers room right now – hope there’s nothing in there.  He has some oil [hash oil] too.)  It’s going to be quiet around here without Tyler. I suppose they’ll keep him for a few days.  I’m wondering if they’re going to search my room.  I’m expecting a piss test tomorrow morning at least.  I’ve got something up my arse right now and I don’t know what to do with it.

April 24

Major fuck up here today.  They wouldn’t let me have my visit.  Michelle told me at quarter to one that they were here.  I waited and waited and then at quarter after one they said there was ‘complications.  Five minutes later Bill came and said he couldn’t let them in cause they were expecting my mother and not [my wife].  This is incredibly stupid.  They sent them back to Souris. 

Things are so fucked up around here.  Not one of those bastards has an ounce of compassion in their bodies.  They are so focused on punishment they can’t even be human.  What’s worse is that it’s really the kids that get punished, more so than me.  The system here is just so terrible.  I don’t know how these people can live with themselves.  I called home this evening and everybody was pissed off.  I suppose we’re partly to blame for not saying [my wife] was coming but who would ever expect something like this to happen?  I’ll be so glad to get out of here.

My mother found out that my name is on the list for the May program so there is hope that I’ll be gone next week.  Oh, please … my mother told me that they think [my daughter] is going to be left-handed.  That is good news to me..  I wish I would have seen her today.  Maybe next week … Tyler is still in lock up.  It’s pretty quiet without him here, he makes things interesting.  I played a few games of Scrabble with Jason today (he was pretty stoned) but most of the time I just watched tv.  I had a relaxing day.  I just hope its all over next week though.  I gotta get out of here.