December 15

Another minor squabble with [nurse] this morning.  I went out to get some aspirin and she says, “you’re not on my list for medications – go back to your unit and wait till I’m finished with the others”.  What the fuck is that?  Apparently, she wants us to come out one at a time now so that there won’t be any witnesses around when she says something to me.  When I got my pills this afternoon I said, “there’s no witnesses around now eh [nurse]?”  Later her and Bubba called me into the office and told me I’m no longer allowed to make comments to the nurse.  Fuck her and fuck Bubba too.  He’s been a prick to me since this investigation came about.  I shouldn’t have to feel repercussions because I made a legitimate complaint.  Sput told me I was “on thin ice now”.  I’m sure the guards hate [nurse] as much as I do.  I hope I’ve ruined her Christmas …

I got my letter to the Supreme Court out today via the lawyer, Ken G., seems like a nice guy, helpful.  I’d love to see that hit the paper …

I had a very successful appointment with the doctor.  He’s going to put me on Serax.  That’s gonna make my time easier.  I told him I was very stressed out about not seeing my kids for Christmas and about how I’m being treated by staff because of my complaint.  I just hope he gives me the 30’s instead of the 15’s …

Whip went up for bail today and got turned down.  Things are not looking good for him now.  I feel sorry for him because he’ll be here for maybe a year and if convicted they’re asking for 7 and he has a wife and two children.  Things are going to be hard for them …

I wrote “Bubba the hunter” on the door this morning and he wasn’t pleased when he saw that.  There’s a story going around the building that he was caught sitting on a tree stump jerking off while on a hunting trip in Nova Scotia. Ha ha ha  sick bastard …

Marc didn’t get his visit.  I’m starting to think that he’s full of shit.  I guess we’ll find out tomorrow when visiting day comes.

As of today, I’ve got 17% of my time left (85 days). I think that once the holidays are over it’ll be a breeze.  As long as the staff don’t fuck me around too much.  They’re not going to be pleased if any of this stuff hits the newspapers.

December 16

Mum and dad were here today.  They want me to drop my complaint against [nurse2] because she’s giving Cindy a hard time.  I’m unsure of what to do.  I have a very solid case, and I could sue for this.  And [nurse2] shouldn’t be pressuring Cindy.  At this point, I’m more inclined to let it stand than drop it.  I owe favors to no one at this place …  Also, they still haven’t gotten my newspaper subscription.  I’m really getting pissed at that.  I’ve asked her about ten times now.

I didn’t get Serax yet.  They say they’ll be here tomorrow now.  I really do need them cause I’m stressed out over the complaints and the Christmas season itself.  I would love to be home.  I don’t think I’ve ever really taken interest in the kids at Christmas before. And, I was so looking forward to it … Laurie offered me a laptop for $500.  He says he paid $3000 for it about 3 years ago and hardly ever used it.  I’m interested … Mark had a successful visit today but the benefits haven’t filtered through to our unit yet, but I think we’re going to have a very merry Christmas, only eight days away now.

December 17

Friday, the weekends upon us again.  Today went well.  I had a meeting with [Counselor] and complained about how the staff is treating me since the complaint came about.  She didn’t care. I also asked her about taking a correspondence course and she’s ok with that, I was going to ask her about the National Post but I decided just to let the Supreme Court handle it.  I also complained about [nurse] always making sure that I’m the last one to get pills.  Today she didn’t even want to see me.  She got Sput to bring the pills into the unit for me.  Actually, I kinda like table service …

I met with Sandy for a while and had a good conversation, but we still haven’t started the IQ tests …

We got a small package in – Xanax.  They just make me sleepy though.  Maybe if I had more … Whip and Neil aren’t very happy (and Whip isn’t very happy with Neil).  Neil was pretty loose on the phone, and it looks like they’re going down for 5-7.

I’m getting along good with Mark and if he gets out, he may be able to do me some favors.  It’ll be good to know someone in Montreal if I end up moving there next year. … I started getting my Serax today but they’re only 15’s.  I’ll have to try and get that fixed up next week.  I’ve only got 83 days left so if we can get some goodies in, it’ll be over before I know it.