January 17

Some bad but not suprising news today.  [Counselor] won’t give me a t.a. for treatment.  I expected this but the way she handled it pissed me off.  She didn’t tell me, she just told one of the guards to tell me.  So, I put in a request to see [Supervisor] and then [Counselor] came down and she and I argued.  I hate the bitch.  I told her to get some therapy.  Fuck, I hate her.  But what am I to do? …

I was at the library to study my French, but the new book is hard.  They talk too fast.  Tomorrow a girl from UPEI is coming in to help me.  I’m kinda looking forward to that.  I hope she’s good looking … I found a book of crossword puzzles in the library and brought it back to the unit with me …

I called Ian and he says things are going well.  Not sure about the visit tomorrow but I hope everything works out.

… I asked the nurse to put me back on the amytriptaline until the doctor comes in.  last night I was awake till five o’clock.  I’ll put up with the bad dreams rather than lay awake all night …

Now that I know I won’t get a t.a. I guess I don’t have to worry about going to medium.  I’ll finish my time here.  Hopefully when I get out, I can talk Motor Vehicles out of making me take the rehab course.  If not, I don’t know what I’ll do.  I can’t be in Souris with no car.  I’ll just have to hope that things work themselves out somehow.

January 18

Couldn’t sleep again last night.  I hope the doctor can give me something that works when I see him tomorrow …

The French girl was in to help me out today.  She’s not at all attractive but she knows her French.  I realize that I have a long way to go to speak the language.  I can decipher written French but it’s hard for me to carry on even a simple conversation …

The Nurses Association called here today, and she spoke to all the other guys in the unit who I listed as witnesses.  They all backed me up, as they should. I’m looking forward to this hearing.  I’ll be so happy if she loses her job …

Jason was planning to go to Summerside next week, but they listened in on one of his phone calls and heard his friend say, “that’s taken care of”, so he’s getting fucked around.  It doesn’t take much in this place.

Lorrie and Neil go on and on about their cases all the time.  I’m getting tired of listening to them.  They both think they’re getting off but I’m not so sure.  From listening to them though, I see that I could have beaten my charges with a better lawyer.  Oh well, not much I can do about that now.

Tomorrow, I’m down to 50 days so my time here’s getting short.  Yabba-dabba-doo