December 1

There was quite a bit of snow outside, but I don’t care ‘cuz I’m cozy and warm in here and I don’t have to go outside all winter if I don’t have to.  So there … I saw the doctor today.  I was waiting to go back on Busparone but he thinks they’re addictive so he upped my dosage on the other stuff he’s giving me, whatever you call it.  It’s one of those words I instantly forget …

Rob got out today, he looked happy (well of course) … I was asking John about getting some language stuff from the library, but it seems that we are no longer allowed to borrow from there (not since I asked), the bullshit just never stops.  It never ends.  …

I wrote a request to [Counselor] in French (asking for the National Post) which I’ll probably get in shit for.  I filled in space for checking off who I want to see with a smiling niggers face and in the ‘other’ box I wrote “yo mama”.  I don’t think she‘s going to like that, but that’s what makes these so fun …

My hand is getting cramps from writing.  I hope I haven’t given myself arthritis by cracking my knuckles …

[Guard 3] brought in the Moncton Transcript today and left it behind for us to ready, but Sharkey took it home with him.  What a cheap thoughtless bastard.  Why can’t he buy his own paper?  Things like this really piss me off.  Another thing that pisses me off is that the pages in these notepads keep coming out.  In fact, I’m going to write a letter to the company now.

December 2

Pretty good day. We all got along well in the unit.  I hope to keep in touch with Mark and Neil after I get out, providing that they don’t have to go to the pen.  Neil got taken over to New Brunswick this evening.  He has to appear in court there Monday on a possession charge.  It came as a surprise to him.  He just found out today (Thursday) and they told him he’d be leaving Sunday, but the sheriff showed up to get him this evening … his lawyer got my letter (CBC, National Post) out for me.  Cool ….

Anne didn’t show up again.  I don’t know why I don’t just give up.  So close and yet so far …

Mark is helping me out with my French.  He’s a lot more help than Jimmy was.  Jimmy got mad at me whenever I mispronounced something.  It’s hard to learn like that …

Bubba did inspections of our rooms today.  He’s a lot easier to get along with than that fucking prick [Guard1] … Tomorrow is Jolene’s birthday so I’m going to send her a box of chocolates (Smarties).

I was not aware that a community assessment for Moncton had been done.  I was only informed about this assessment when speaking to Brian Smith on October 27, 1999.  I received a copy on October 29, 1999, long after my hearing on September 8.

December 3

[he wrote, Jan. 3, stroked it out, and put “I wish”]

Well, a bit of bad news today.  James ripped us off for the (18) Demerol.  Asshole.  Bastard.  Prick.  It seems like every time, every fucking time, we get something lined up it gets fucked up.

…  I suppose that a good thing that happened today was that I saw a syringe and some coke, and was offered a hit, but I found it easy to resist.  I also had 2 V’s [valium] and I gave them away.  I think I can handle things when I get out.

… This is Jolene’s birthday.  I tried to send her a box of chocolates (well, Smarties) but they wouldn’t let me.

    … I started my tests with Sandy.  I guess we’re going to finish them next week.  I’ve also asked him, (as a sort of go-between), to talk to [Counselor] about getting us a subscription to The National Post (Bubba wouldn’t let her see my request).  I figure that if I approach her myself, she’ll say no as soon as I open my mouth.  She’s such a cunt …

They got some books at the library but it’s just a pile of garbage.  I guess people think that when they want to get rid of books they can either take them to the dump or donate them to the jail.  This load should have went to the dump.  Calise!