April 15

My mother’s birthday and she was in to visit today.  She’ll be back again Sunday with Steven and [Valerie] if I can arrange an open visit.  I’m not sure I can do that cause Lorrie and Leo are both out tomorrow and [Supervisor] is an asshole …  No word from him today on whether or not I can go to medium.  I’m not really expecting it but there are a lot of guys in maximum, it’s almost full, so they might have to move some of us out.  It should only be a couple more weeks here anyway although parole hasn’t yet contacted anyone in Souris.

…  I was at the library again this morning.  I threw out a lot of books that nobody would read.  And Susan taught me the MicMac word for beer, although I can’t remember it now.  Something about yeast sooga or something like that.  I should have wrote it down … Every day in here gets just a little bit longer.  I’m ready to move on.  This month is my fifteenth in custody, in one form or another – a long time, such a long time.

April 16

It now appears that I will have to spend the rest of my time here in max.  Apparently, medium wants nothing to do with me.  What a silly place this is.  I really hope nothing goes wrong and I get out as planned. … Richard is getting out too, in a couple of weeks and returning to Toronto.  I hope to get his number and make contact.  I wish I was able to spend some time here with him and John before I left but I guess that won’t be possible.

John … told me this morning that [nurse1] has put a remark on his parole papers about being suspected of taking creatine.  Again, she plays the bitch.  And she’s good at it …

Susan took me down to work on the computers this afternoon.  I’m glad she is here.  She has probably been more helpful than anyone here for me.  Yesterday she taught me the MicMac word for beer (bos yeast sa boo). So now I can say beer in ten languages.  I be a linguist …

South Park tonight was about Kyles parents getting divorces and how it fucked up his life.  I wonder if [my son] was watching it (of course he was) and what he was thinking about.  Even if only for his sake I think [my wife] should have tried to make things work out.  I’m glad that I’m free but I’m sad about what happens to him and [my daughter].  It is them who are the victims, unfortunately.

April 17

Just another long boring eventless day.

April 19

I slept just about all day yesterday.  It’s extremely boring here.  Well, I read a lot too, finished “Black Light” [by Elizabeth Hand] – not bad.

Today is another boring day … I sent a letter to Verna yesterday asking her to explain why I can’t go to medium and today [Supervisor] gave it back to me and said, “Verna agrees with my decision”.  I was expecting a written response, so I told [Supervisor] to give it back to her and tell her to put her reply in writing.  I believe that I deserve that much. …

I got a list of treatment centres in Ontario from [Supervisor] and I’ve written a letter which I hope to type up and send to about 15 places.  I think Kitchener or Hamilton would be my preferred location.  I’m getting kinda excited about going to Ontario.  I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t get my parole …

I asked Les again about moving to Tyler’s unit, but he didn’t really give me an answer so maybe that means no.  I learned one of the guys over there is a Sampson from Souris, [Supervisor]’s cousin …

I was at church tonight, which, I like cause we get to mingle with the guys from the other units.  It’s the only time that Max is allowed to do so. 

John told me that he is considering suing [nurse1], the bitch.  I hope he does.  She should be stopped, such a bitch. 

Tomorrow, I can begin my 10 day countdown till I’m outta this place.  Time to make like horseshit and hit the trail.