April 10

I’m really bored here.  I don’t like these guys I’m in with.  They are pinheads, especially the new guy.  I might ask about going to Barry’s unit.

I’m still feeling sick too.  This really sucks.  My stomach is always sore and my back hurts.  I wish I had some pills to knock me out for a couple of days.

April 11

Sick.

April 12

Sick.

April 13

Finally getting over this stomach flu or whatever it is.  I felt like I was going through heroin withdrawal the past few days.  I suppose the bright side is that I lost some weight cause I’ve hardly eaten any meals since Sunday … We got a real bunch of pinheads in this unit.  Usually, I get along with everybody, but I don’t care for these idiots at all.  One scruffbag doesn’t want anybody to shower in the morning, so I do it anyway just to piss him off.  What a bunch of pinheads.  And also, some of the ugliest guys I’ve ever seen.  Dirty, ugly, pinheads …  Susan took me down to the computer room this afternoon, so I was able to finish my resume and cover letter and got them printed as well.  If everything goes ok, I should have them in the mail next week.

… I’m really starting to look forward to getting out of here.  After this last move, I’m getting so tired of the bullshit around here.  I don’t know how some of these people can live with themselves, such a sour miserable bunch of bastards.  Seems like they exist only to make things difficult for us.  I just don’t get it.  [Supervisor] Trainor probably walks out of here every day saying, “wow, I had a great day.  I fucked Reg around, I fucked Tyler around, I fucked John around a lot …”

April 14

My health is better today.  I think part of my sickness is self-induced by not eating.  But I just wasn’t hungry the past few days.  I asked to see the doctor, but she said he wasn’t in today. I’m now wondering if she lied to me.  I heard her ask another inmate if he wanted to see a doctor.  She was kinda sucking up to a guy in medium because he’s upset with her for taking away his pills.  He, being smart for an Indian I suppose has gotten his lawyer involved.  She’s not gonna keep getting away with this bullshit

… they sent us all to the gym this morning so they could search the unit.  Nothing was found.  I’m surprised that someone ([Supervisor]) could work here five days a week and yet be so out of touch as to order a search when there are no drugs around … hmmm …

… instead of waiting in the gym I was able to go and help out in the library sorting out the old books.  There’s a lot of shitty books there (I found one called “Chocolate Charlie”, about a black boy.  I think you could call that racist).  Susan and I prepared a letter to send out to bookstores and libraries, but it seems that [Supervisor] has stalled it.  What a bonehead …

I finally sent out my application to Canadian today.  I’m anxious now to see what kind of response I get … we finished the Anger Management course today.  It was a fairly good course – George is an ok guy.  Too bad the rest of them are such assholes …

This unit is getting filled up again.  How come that always happens after I get here?  I would have enjoyed the peace and quiet.  Instead, I spend all my time in my room cause the guys I’m in with are idiots.

[Counselor] is back tomorrow so maybe, not likely but maybe, she’ll move me.  It might help if she sees that I am working in the library.  I’ll not get my hopes up though …

A cop was here today to get my fingerprints.  Laurie McLure from Souris.  He told me he used to go fishing with my grandfather at the brook.  I must ask dad about that place.  Apparently, we used to own it.  I should have asked him some questions about my grandfather.  I regret that now.  I wish I knew more about him.

I heard from Thane today that my sentence calculation started on November 25 so it looks like I won’t get full parole until June 15, so I’ve got 2 more months yet – 2 weeks more here (that’s all – I hope) and then six weeks in Summerside.  And then, if all goes well, I’ll be making plans for Ontario.  And it all gets better from there.

April 15

My mother’s birthday and she was in to visit today.  She’ll be back again Sunday with Steven and [Valerie] if I can arrange an open visit.  I’m not sure I can do that cause Lorrie and Leo are both out tomorrow and [Supervisor] is an asshole …  No word from him today on whether or not I can go to medium.  I’m not really expecting it but there are a lot of guys in maximum, it’s almost full, so they might have to move some of us out.  It should only be a couple more weeks here anyway although parole hasn’t yet contacted anyone in Souris.

…  I was at the library again this morning.  I threw out a lot of books that nobody would read.  And Susan taught me the MicMac word for beer, although I can’t remember it now.  Something about yeast sooga or something like that.  I should have wrote it down … Every day in here gets just a little bit longer.  I’m ready to move on.  This month is my fifteenth in custody, in one form or another – a long time, such a long time.