December 26 (Day 59)

I’m just glad the day is over. Today is my 60th day here (he was off by a day …). 42 more and I’m eligible for day parole although it will likely be much longer because of the paperwork involved.

I wrote two letters today; one was to the director of Correction’s.

I’ve been asking to see the Corrections Act and so far, I’ve been denied or ignored by everyone I’ve asked. So, I’ve decided to go outside the jail and see what happens.

I also complained about Gary T. asking what’s in my sealed letters, the second letter was to the Minister of Health. I’m complaining about the razors we use. We are expected to re-use disposable razors and store them together. I think this is both unsanitary and unacceptable. (response on Jan 27, 1999, from the PEI Government)

I’m going to stir up some shit around here and see what happens. They’ll either be pricks to me or want me out on parole as soon as possible.

I’m also going to put up a chip at AA and then take it down a week later to test the anonymity principle. They shouldn’t be allowed to ask me about what happened because what goes on in the rooms of AA is supposed to stay there. I’m curious to see what happens.

I didn’t do much at all today. I just did some crossword puzzles, played a few games of pool and watched some tv. I expect tomorrow will be much of the same.

December 27

Today went really slow being both a holiday weekend and a Sunday. I slept and watched tv for most of the day. I was thinking though that I would be just as bored if I was in Souris as I am here.

We watched an interesting documentary about drugs in Vancouver and then a gangster movie, Goodfellas. Since I’ve been in here my interest in selling drugs has been renewed. Sending me to jail was probably the worst possible thing they could have done to me. Anything I didn’t know before about selling drugs I know now. And I’ve found connections to get anything I want. I may be much more of a problem for the cops when I get out than I ever was. Anything is possible if I stay straight and use the knowledge I have now. Anything.

December 28

Long holiday weekend finally is over. Everything back to semi-normal. Well actually no it isn’t not yet. Tomorrow it is.

I was talking to Irene today on the phone. I don’t think I would be in jail if Irene had been there this fall. She is a very intelligent woman. And she seems to be the only one who understands me. It’s unfortunate that I can’t get back in Talbot House for six months, because by that time it will be too late to commit myself for three to six months. I can only hope things work out some other way.

I spent most of the day playing Scrabble, first with Abby and then with Noel. I lost a bale of tobacco to Abby. I don’t like gambling because it creates tension and causes pressure. But Abby only plays if he’s gambling.

Anne T. called here today and left her number, but I wasn’t able to get back to her. I hope to get a few things done tomorrow (phone calls to home, lawyer and check out library) and send letter to Abigail.