January 1, 2000

Well, the first day of the new millennium has passed.  Slowly, but its gone by and I’m one day closer to getting out.  Dave C. brought in some newspapers for me and I was pleased for that.  But I just don’t have enough to do to fill the 24 hours.

I take one or two naps and then I can’t sleep till 3 or 4 in the morning but what’s a guy to do.

Spoke to Jellybelly today.  No action there.  It’s all up to Anne now, which doesn’t mean much.  If it can’t be worked out by tomorrow, I may as well just give up and focus on getting into the Detox program in February, that’s not too far away now.  Only 40 days, or 68 if that doesn’t work out.

January 2

Sunday.  Tomorrow’s a holiday and then all is back to normal.  I had some papers to read so it wasn’t a bad day, except for my visit. 

Mum and dad came in whining that they didn’t (and won’t) take my letter to the newspaper and about the complaint I have against the nurse.  I refuse to drop it and I told them not to come back.  Dad even accused me of being on drugs. [he was right!]  I don’t think I’ll ever have a good relationship with my parents.  Just wait till I tell them I’m going to sell drugs again.  I haven’t decided yet, but I might even take their names off my visiting list.  I just don’t look forward to getting visits from them.  They’re always so critical of me.  I get enough shit from the administration here.  I just don’t need any more from them.  Life’s too short for that, as dad would say.

… Mark found out from Debra L. that Jason did indeed rip him off last week.  What a fucking bastard.  There were 20 pills and he gave Mark about 8, all crushed up (so he couldn’t count them).  The good news is that something came in for me.  I hope to have it tomorrow.  It’s small but it’ll make me happy.  I think tomorrows gonna be a good day …

January 3

66 days left.  I can feel my freedom getting closer.  Today I slept till about three o’clock which made the day go by well.  I may have to try that more often … my package didn’t arrive yet, but I can wait another day or two, its been so long now.  And I believe there’s more in the works.  This might be a good month as long as [Counselor] leaves me alone …

Church, I found especially boring tonight, I guess because there wasn’t many there.  I was speaking with Dennis (he’s looking for work) but Mike wasn’t there.  I wanted to tell him not to give anything to Jason cause we don’t trust the bastard …

Breakfast was optional this morning, but they didn’t tell us that until they got us all out of bed!  Infidels!  I’m trying to start a diet cause I’m just way too fat and I want to be able to fit into my jeans when I get out of here.  If we didn’t have to go to all the meals, it would be a lot easier.