March 8

My light burnt out so I’m sleeping downstairs in Jason’s old room tonight.  Pain in the arse.  … Today I went outside for a half an hour.  Just thought I’d get some fresh air and prepare myself for getting out …

My request for a limousine was denied, as expected.  Bastards!  Infidels! …

Neil wouldn’t play cards with Whip and Mark today because Whip always yells at him.  Lorrie picks on him relentlessly …

Ian seems to be fucking around about the money.  Now he says 100 or 200 on Friday morning and more in the afternoon but he tells me something different every time I talk to him. I really hope he doesn’t fuck this up …

I might try and get out to Winstons or G’s to see if they can help me out.  One way or another, I’ve got to get my room on Friday before my mother gets involved.  It wouldn’t surprise me if she showed up here Friday morning even though I told her not to.  I shouldn’t even have said I’d be out Friday.  So anyway, my time is pretty near finished here.  All I got left to do is take a shower and make 3 more trips to the kitchen.  I’m trying not to get too excited but it’s really gonna be nice to walk out the front door of this place Friday morning.  Everything is gonna work out fine this summer, me thinks.

March 9 – Released

The final day.  It’s been a long time coming. Tomorrow at 6:30, I’ll be on my way, on a new adventure to see where life takes me, and I hope it doesn’t include AA.  Anything could go wrong but I’ve got a feeling that things are going to work out fine.  I’m gonna miss Lorrie, Mark, and Neil.  We had a fairly good time together in this unit.  Sleepy Hollow isn’t really a bad place to do time as long as you don’t do too much.  I’d 16 ½ months and I’m kinda proud that I made it through unscathed, and if I want to see again, I’ve made some good connections … I couldn’t get in touch with Wayne this morning but I’m expecting him to be here at 6:30 … it’s really been a long time since I’ve been on the street, no conditions attached.

Tomorrow I’m free to do as I please … Saturday I’ll be going out to Souris to see the kids.  Seeing them at home is going to be nice for a change, but I’m not looking forward to tangling with my parents. I wish they could just see who I really am and let it be.

… Jolene in the Lacy House and Debra L. is supposed to go to Blue Rodeo with me so I will be mingling with the opposite sex.  I’m going to enjoy meeting some new women (obviously).

I’m really optimistic about the future.  Opportunities and maybe some good luck will come my way and everything’s just going to work out fine.  I’m ready and willing and eager to put these last 2 years behind and show the world what I can do, and these are my last words from Sleepy Hollow.

I like the outlaw culture and ‘one day at a time’ indicated to me that you’re doing a sentence.  I wish they could just accept me for who I am, but I doubt that will ever happen.  Reggie just doesn’t follow the rules and that’s how it is. I am, I’m me.