January 4

Yeah!  The long awaited D’s [Dilaudid] finally arrived!  Only two of them but I felt so good.  So good.  How I’ve missed that feeling.  To be king of the world again.  I was supposed to get 5 P’s [Percocet – Oxycontin] as well but I don’t know what happened to them.  But I was elated just to get the D’s.  And Ian tells me he may have some good news for Thursday.

Jason and I got in an argument.  I didn’t let on to him that I had anything, but Whip kept dropping hints.  I was getting even with Jason for not sharing his pills with us.  But I went and talked to him and smoothed things over, because I’m basically a nice guy.  He apologized for what he did, and I told him it’s all forgotten. 

I wish we had enough that everybody could get some and we could all enjoy ourselves.  It’s a good unit we have here and it’s good to see everyone getting along good.  If I could feel this good everyday it would be a breeze to do time here.  Oh, how I wish …

Jr., the screwdriver killer got life 15 today, so I’m definitely the grandfather now.  I guess he’s pretty fucked up anyway but what a waste of his life, he’s only 21 and he can’t handle doing time here, so I don’t think he’s gonna make it in the pen.  Moe is getting sentenced tomorrow too, so he’ll probably be going along too.  I was hoping to meet up with Moe on the street sometime, not in here again.  I’m down to 68 days now and if things get done for us on the street, I’ll be out before I know it.  I know that today was one of the best days I’ve had in here – hope there’s more to come like it …

I’ve been trying to get in touch with Paul M. [Summerside Detox] to see if he can pull some strings to get me into the program in February.  If that can be arranged, I’ll only have 33 days until it starts, that would be cool …

I’m going to have to ask Mark about helping me with the French, maybe an hour a day …

I broke out the last pack of duMaurier.  This was the occasion I was waiting for … I hope they don’t try and move me down to medium (although I would like to go to … [not legible, clearly written under the influence of the Dilaudid he mentioned earlier])  Really though, I’m quite comfortable where I am …

I’ve heard that the set of twins [?] I got for [Pauline] for Christmas might have a flaw in it that would increase its value by 300.  Hope that’s true.

January 5

Finished off my d’s [Dilaudid] today – 2 hits.  I love that stuff.  It makes me feel so relaxed and peaceful.  If only I had a steady supply.  Hope to get some news on that tomorrow.  The p’s [Percocet – Oxycontin] just weren’t there to be found.  I don’t know what happened there.  Maybe we’ll find that out tomorrow too …

I got new French stuff from John, but it looks pretty complicated.  I’m going to have to get Mark to help me out …

Moe got 2 years today.  It still amazes me how quick these things can happen.  A week ago, he woke up in jail and didn’t know why he was there and today he’s on his way to Springhill.  Moe’s a fairly smart guy; too bad he couldn’t get his life together.

Layton M. came in today – 22 months.  I would say that much time was unnecessary.  Just knowing that you were responsible for your best friend’s death is severe enough punishment …

I went to the gym and played 3 games of snooker with Mark.  Lost all three, although, I put up a bit of a fight on the last one. … tomorrow’s visiting day.  I hope someone is good to us.  We could sure use it.  I’ve only got 9 weeks left now and it’s going quickly.  Can’t wait to get out and get back to business and order a pizza too.  That would be nice.

January 6

Another dull day.  It was so cold in the unit that I stayed in my room most of the day (it’s warmer upstairs).  Jean called this morning about going over the separation agreement.  I’m going to set up an appointment for next week … I got some new French stuff.  It looks to be a lot more difficult.

… Ian and Debra L. didn’t meet up.  I wish they could just get this done and get it over with.  It shouldn’t be this difficult.  Anne is being such a bitch.  Well, nine weeks left.  Maybe less (sort of) if Paul M. [Summerside Detox] can pull some strings for me.

January 7

Paul M. [Summerside Detox] was here this morning.  All he can do is tell them I’m accepted for the February program and that there is no program in March.  Then it’s up to [Counselor] and [Supervisor] so I doubt that I’ll be going anywhere. Bastards!  Infidels!

The staff caught on to the bathroom drop off so its gonna be dry around here.  I think if Jason hadn’t known about it then it wouldn’t have gotten fucked up.  He’s a heatbag.  Now that there’s nothing here maybe he’ll go to medium and we can figure something else out.

I’ve only got 2 months left anyway and I can handle that without drugs, but it would have made the time go faster.  I did hear today that my friend got my package so I can wait till I get out if necessary.  A script of serax would be nice though ‘cause they wouldn’t affect my piss tests …

Neil got taken over to Moncton for another court appearance on Monday.  It’s gonna be a long weekend for him.  I think it’s gonna be a long here too cause today felt like a Saturday.  Please let these next two months go by quickly.

January 8

A very boring day.  It’s too cold in here to stay downstairs and watch t.v.  too cold to sit down there for anything so I just slept all day. … I couldn’t get Ian on the visiting list for tomorrow, cause [Guard1] was the CO3.  Asshole!  I kinda wish I had someone to come and visit me, just something to look forward to …

January 9

I slept till 4 o’clock and then I read the four newspapers I have saved up for today.  I couldn’t get Ian on the visiting list cause [Guard1] was working again but the weather wasn’t good anyway, so maybe next week.  It was a very uneventful day and I’m glad the weekend is over.  I now have 59 days left.