July 4

Another weekend comes to an end.  John and I spent the past eight hours playing axis and allies.  I’m getting better but I’m not going to win … I got a piss test this morning so I should be allowed outside by Tuesday …. I was at AA tonight – first meeting in a long time.  John is Chairman now … nobody came to visit today.  I was hoping my mother would show up.  Oh, well, twelve more days till my hearing.

July 5

No money left for canteen today. I got John to buy some tobacco for me.  I’m unable to get an answer at home to ask for money.  I suppose they might have been at Biscuit’s funeral … it rained today so I didn’t go out.  I think tomorrow I should be able to go out to the field. … John beat me at Axis and Allies twice today.  But I am getting better.

July 7

Well, two more days have gone by.   I got my outside privileges yesterday, so I’ve been going out in the evenings.  It’s nice to walk on the grass again and see the trees …. Warren is my caseworker now.  He seems ok, although a little moody.  I finally got a call home yesterday, so we got money again.  It was almost a crisis. … I spoke to Brian yesterday.  The parole hearing has been re-re-scheduled to the 19th and I will get the decision that day, although it seems unlikely that I will get out before the program starts in August.

July 8

More of the same today.  I hung around with the guys, went outside a couple of times, ate some shitty meals … there’s really not much to say.  But it’s now only eleven days till my hearing.