February 13

Anne called today, from Ontario.  She’s not mad at me.  I’m surprised her call got through but I was very glad to hear from her.  She’s gonna help me get settled in Ontario as I had hoped. Expecting a call again on Monday which I look forward to.

Finished drug program today.  Got a diploma.

Dan noted on my evaluation form that I needed further treatment for addiction / mental health.  He thinks I’m crazy, they all think I’m crazy.

Nobody understands me.  Poor me …

… Jennifer was working tonight – always nice to see here.  She and I would make cute babies.  I wish she would replace the old hag, [nurse1].

Got a Valentines card from [my daughter] today.  She should be in to see me on Sunday.  I miss her.  She’s so cute.

Guy who was supposed to bring in drugs didn’t.  I think I’m a curse to anyone who tries to bring stuff in.  The plans always seem to go wrong when I’m involved.  I’m disappointed but I’m also relieved cause I didn’t get a piss test yet.  I’ll be really pissed off if I do get one this weekend though. But I won’t be surprised.

Overall things went well today.  It looks like I can begin to make plans for parole to Ontario.  That’s what I want so bad.  If it doesn’t work out, I will be sad.

February 14

Valentine’s Day, but it’s not all romantic in this place.  I did get my visit today.  Went okay, [my daughter] is a bit shy of me, which makes me feel a bit uncomfortable. 

I find it hard to relax in the visiting room because the guard sits there and stares at us.  I was hoping my mother could bring me some computer books, but not it seems that not even that is allowed. 

Oh, to be free again.  This has been such a long week; I thought it would never end.

I think tomorrow, I shall ask for a transfer to medium [security].  I hear that there is hardly anyone there.  Lots of room for me.  I’m hoping that this coming week, the guy from Summerside Detox will see me and accept me and I can get the parole papers in.