October 1

And the bullshit continues.  Dennis didn’t go outside today so that probably means he got greedy.  This is so fucking annoying …

I got a letter from the Nurses Association today asking me to fill in a complaint form. I don’t know what the fuck this is all about; I thought we already went through this.

I also got a call from a lawyer, Susan W., responding to my letter to the Lawyers Association asking for help.  She is going to do some research on the strip searches and human rights and get back to me.  If they plan on strip searching me tomorrow after my visit with the kids, I think I’m going to refuse.  And I will probably spend the weekend in lock-up for that.  But I’ll do it for the cause …

Jim found out today that his sentencing has been put off for two more weeks.  He is very disappointed, as he was looking forward to getting to Springhill, or looking forward to getting out of this fucked-up place.  And Frankie was told he won’t be going to medium.  That’s obviously because of the letters he wrote … I heard that Jodi is going to be sent to the women’s prison, I guess because they don’t want to deal with her here.  It’s probably a better place anyway.  Anything would be better than here …

… Georgina gave me “War and Peace” today.  I’m looking forward to reading that.  But first, I have to finish the two books I’m reading now:  Cocaine Kings and Elsa’s Story, I am really enjoying.  War & Peace is thirteen hundred pages so that should keep me busy for a long time, probably until it snows …

October 2

Mum and dad and the kids were in today.  [My daughter] is so pretty.  But mum and dad make me uncomfortable around the kids.  I feel like I’m being monitored.  Every time they come in, they whisper “talk to [my son]” but then I find it hard to talk to them cause I’m under pressure … It would probably be better if [my wife] brought them in.  But she’s a bitch.  She says she wants me to have a relationship with them, but she’ll do nothing to facilitate it …

We got Elery L. back in our unit today.  I’m not sure if he’s ok or not.  He seems kind of obnoxious but there’s 4 guys to play cards now so I might get the tv to myself … Dennis is in the hole.  I guess he fucked up and ate all the pills.  Just another asshole, one of many I’ve met this past year …

Frankie and I dressed the salt and pepper shakers up in KKK outfits at lunch.  It looked pretty funny … my ad hasn’t appeared in the paper yet.  I’m kinda disappointed about that.  I was hoping to get some mail.  I would have enjoyed corresponding with some females, yeah …

October 3

Well another weekend is over.  Only about 22 left now …! … again Winston didn’t show up.  I don’t know what the fuck he’s up to, but it doesn’t look good … my tape player broke down today and John Bradley won’t be back for a week so I will have to get along without it … I’ve finished the books I was reading and now I’m starting into War and Peace.  I think I’m-a gonna like it …

October 4

Jim went to court today, but his sentencing was put off (again) till the 22nd.  And Elery the dirtbag went to court too, but he hasn’t come back yet … Frankie and I and [Supervisor] got into a big argument today.  I really got the bastard pissed off.  He made Frankie take off his cross, but we put up a good fight (argument).

Dennis came back to max, empty handed.  This thing is just fucking hopeless …

Nobody farted in church tonight … Jolene took off early.  I don’t know what was wrong with her.  Must be in a bad mood about something …

I’m not sure if this French course is any good.  I’m learning lots of words, but I don’t get to use them much.  Jim seems a bit cranky about helping me out.  I wish I was stuck in a French jail for a couple months.

October 5

Tuesday.  Hmmm … I got a letter from Tyler this morning.  He’s at the farm now and going to Ontario soon.

I also got a letter from Du Maurier [tobacco].  Looks like I’ll be getting a free carton of cigarettes … all kinds of fun stuff coming in …

Frankie made a bracelet this evening.  I kinda like it … Jim C. went off at Merle tonight.  That was good to see.  We have to put up with so much bullshit here, usually over little things that sooner of later somebody is going to explode … I heard today that Martin Dorell died.  I was going to meet him when I got out … time waits for no man …

October 6

Frankie’s gone.  We knew something was up when we saw [Guard1] standing in the kitchen with some papers in his hand and looking excited.  He nabbed Frankie in the hall.  I guess his reason was that he was wearing a necklace (?!?) but it was really about Frankie writing letters about the nurse.  I think [Guard1] wanted Frankie and me split up because I was urging him on.  [Guard1] is a fucking piece-of-shit asshole and I guess Frankie told him so – way to go Franko.  But they cleaned out his cell so he won’t be coming back.  I’ll kinda miss having Frankie around.  He’s a good guy.  But things change so quickly around here. 

People are always coming and going whenever we get a good bunch of guys in the same unit; the guards always want to fuck it up.  I wish death on [Supervisor] and [Guard1] G.  I hate those bastards.  This place is full of assholes; not the inmates, but the guards.  They fuck us over for the stupidest little things.  If I ever do time again it’s going to be Federal …

October 7

Every day seems to be getting a bit longer than the one before it.  Maybe that’s because it’s getting too cold to go outside.  Maybe I just want to get out.  I’ve been here for almost a year and still have five months to go … Frankie will be coming back to max on Saturday.  I heard that from [Supervisor] M.  He isn’t impressed with the way this was handled by [Guard1] and [Supervisor] either.  It was so childish … I guess this weekend is Thanksgiving, but that means nothing in here …