November 27

What a long, boring day this was.  I’m so glad it’s over.  Candace locked my door.  She’s nice and pretty.  I wonder why someone like her would want to work in a place like this.  But I’m glad we do have some good-looking women working here, don’t get me wrong …

I’ve got a bit of a problem now that I’d like to sue some drugs, but I’d like to stay clean in case there’s a chance I could get a Christmas pass.  Next week will be December and I will have to investigate the possibility of getting a pass.  I’d love to spend Christmas with the kids.  …

… I wrote a letter to Santa Claus (the ones they print in the newspaper).  I hope they’ll let the letter go out. … Tomorrow is visiting day and Anne says she’ll come out.  If not, I’m going to give up on trying to get her out …

Rob says he had some H [heroin] for me a few months ago.  I’m not sure whether I believe him or not, but he says his brother is coming home again for Christmas and may bring some more.  That sure would be sweet.  So sweet.

November 28

I’m so glad this weekend is over.  It was so long and boring.  I think this was because nobody brought us in any newspapers and because there was nothing on A&E or the Learning Channel all weekend.  Also, Anne didn’t show up today.  I think I’ll just have to give up on that idea.  It’s not worth the frustration. 

Anyway, I guess I should try to stay clean ‘till Christmas so I can try to get a pass, though it will be no surprise if I don’t get one, especially, now that [Supervisor] the asshole I in charge.  Probably the only way I’ll get a package in is to go out and get it myself … one good thing that happened is that I finally got Whips money to him.  It was no big deal, but I don’t like owing money … I think I also got some Quaaludes lined up for when I get out of here.  Sweet …

November 29

I called Brian S. to ask for suggestions on how to get my appeal reviewed faster.  He suggested I get my case worker to call so I talked to [Counselor] about that and I think I shall do it.  I’m also writing a letter and sending the letter from the Detox and a letter from the jail saying what my release date is.  I don’t know if this will help me, but it is certainly worth a try.  I also filled out an application for a Christmas T.A.  I think I should get it but one never knows …

It looks like Rob may be getting fucked by the parole office.  They think his girlfriend is lying to cover up for him, more details tomorrow …

Jimmy C. got five years today.  He said in court that he owed money to a drug dealer and thought he was going to be killed.  The guys here weren’t happy to hear that …

I was at the library working on my French.  I realized that I’m coming along well. I can listen to the tapes and understand what they’re saying without looking at the book, that’s progress …

I called Kevin Lannigan about getting the 240 [his Datsun 240Z] done.  He’s still not sure if Mark’s going to be working with him so everything is up in the air …

Jolene says that they searched the female unit and found all my letters.  I haven’t heard anything yet but there was some explicit sexual content there.  [Counselor] didn’t mention it though when I was talking to her today. 

I finally finished War & Peace.  I’m reading Serpentine [by Thomas Thompson] now.  It’s very good.

November 30

Another month has come to an end.  Time is getting short (he says with a smile).  If I can stay in this unit, I can finish my time easy, I’ve got a good routine, and the days are passing easily.  I sleep ‘till noon, get up and shower or wash my hair, go to lunch. 

After lunch, I go to the library for an hour, after which, I can go outside for an hour or sit in the unit and enjoy peace and quiet while everyone else is outside.  Then, I read the paper and do the crosswords. 

After that I read The Post (if [Guard 3] brings it in) or take a nap ‘till supper.  After supper, I watch the news and then read for a while or take a nap, and later finish the day with some t.v., usually Investigative Reports.  We all like the same kind of shows on t.v. and Much More music. 

There’s no kids in our unit and we’re all here for a long time.  I’d almost give up the Christmas pass if it meant I had to go to medium.  Almost, that is, but I’d like to be home for Christmas …

I was going to give up on Anne, but I called today and she said she’d come out Thursday.  I’m hopeful but perhaps gullible.  It’s not that important to me to have drugs.  I can take ‘em or leave em, but I want to get fucked up for the holidays, especially New Years, the millennium.  What a place to be on that night.  Calice! …

I sent out six letters this afternoon, Bubba said, “we all have different ways of passing time”, ha ha.  He’s not a bad guy for CO3.  Anything’s an improvement over [Guard1].  I wrote to Algonquin [College] and Sherbrooke for info on their Technical Writing programs.  I already wrote to Sherbrooke, but I never got a reply. 

I sent in a letter to the parole board asking them to speed things up. 

I sent a letter to the World Wildlife Fund asking for info on adopting a polar bear.  I want to do that for [my son or daughter].  It would be an unusual but interesting Christmas gift.  I’ve picked out gifts for all the kids.  The guard thought I was nuts when they read about the polar bear.  “I suppose we could keep it out in the bullpen”, Bubba says.

And I also sent my complaints to the Nurses Association – two against [nurse1] and one against [nurse2].  I would have let [nurse2] off but [nurse1] was such a cunt when I asked her about what happened that I just had to go through with it.  I hate [nurse1], I despise her.  Someday, I’ll spit on her grave …

Brendon was working this evening.  I don’t like him, I think he’s a fag.  And the pig was drinking a can of Pepsi in front of us … It said in the paper today that Jimmy C. will have serve the full five years, without parole.  That is a serious sentence.  Charlottetown is probably better off without him though.  I have no sympathy for him since he ripped me off on the valium.  And I was just sick of the way he was acting like a six year old the past few weeks and always bumming hash from the other guys.

… as of tomorrow, I’ll be down to 99 days.  I’m in the double digits now.  I’ve wasted a long time (400 days to be precise) for that.  It’s all downhill now.  And there’s still a possibility that I can do my last month at the treatment centre.